Mr. Son in concern for me the day after I moved out of my marital home, found a quote for me, that he had at one time memorized. I watched as he scanned the bookshelves, until, he found what he was looking for. He picked the book from the shelf, opened it, and found the quote within seconds. He then read it to me, twice.
I thanked him, and, requested he write it out for me, which he did. I took it to work with me, placed in a desk drawer I save for just such special items, and on several occasions since, I have lifted that piece of paper from its special position in the drawer, and read it. It was exactly what I needed to hear that night. There are days to come, that I know, I will continually pick it up, read through the words, and take comfort from them, but more importantly, I take comfort from the young man who gave them to me.
"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
~ Frank Herbert, Dune - Bene Gesserit Litany Against Fear~
I imparted the news to my husband last night, that I had filed the petition for divorce. I had spent days worrying, fearing, or, (as one dear friend told me) "wound up tightly" with those emotions controlling me. But, I knew that I had to tell the man I have spent the last 30 years of life with, the decision I had made. He was not pleased. In fact he was quite angry. I survived, we all have survived, and I will continue to survive, hopefully with as few emotional wounds for all as can be managed. Life does goes on.