Wednesday, June 06, 2007
I am weary, so weary this evening. A day away from the office, spent with the Caregivers/Family members, of the victims of Alzheimer's Disease, thus a day filled with many emotions, humor was there in full force, one cannot survive such a life without that, yet so much sadness. Several times my eyes filled with unshed tears this day, engendered by the Caregivers themselves, or in one such instance by a victim of the disease herself, who is in the early stages of the disease, and missing her life as it was before. A devastating illness, that leaves its own legacy of pain, fear, grief, and, yet, there was joy too, and so much love.
One of those days when emotions are fragile, feeling as if I could be blown away by the slightest sigh of a breeze.
I feel as if I am playing the waiting game. My attorney did not file the paperwork as he was supposed to last Friday. I had the strangest feeling of uneasiness on Tuesday morning, and made the decision I needed to double-check, just to be sure all was in order. After three phone calls, I learned it was not. The office was closed when I finally had the opportunity to call. At this point, I can only hope the petition was finally filed today.
Once again, I wait, and wait. Not knowing when my soon-to-be-ex-husband will receive THE LETTER. Not knowing if his reaction will be more anger, or some other emotion.
Not knowing, and waiting.
Life goes on, one breath at at time, one inhale, one exhale, as we move ever onward.