Saturday, January 24, 2009

Decree

Petitioner. Respondent. by Counsel. Dissolution of Marriage.

There has been an irretrievable breakdown of the marriage of the parties, and said marriage should be dissolved.

IT IS THEREFORE ORDERED, ADJUDGED AND DECREED by the Court that the marriage of the parties is hereby dissolved...

ALL OF WHICH IS ORDERED this 15 day of January, 2009.


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Words, words that jumped out at me this morning as I scanned the document delivered in this morning's mail.

I've known since Tuesday.

I didn't know what to do with the knowledge then. I don't now.

On Tuesday...
I thought I would get drunk that night...I didn't.
I thought I would spill gallons of tears...I didn't.
I thought about driving to the Lake and finding my own kind of closure...I didn't.

Today...
I read through every page, even though I knew every word contained therein, I felt as if I had to.

Then, I took out the photo album that houses my wedding photos, as I leafed through the pages all I thought was, "We were so young."
I don't know what I expected, maybe that it would help...it didn't.

Still numb.

8 comments:

Jonas said...

If you need a shoulder to cry on...I've got one you can use.

I wish I knew how to bring comfort at times like this. You have my heartfelt sympathy and healing prayers.

Jac said...

Oh my! Big and long awaited changes. Now, just sit and breathe with this one. For sure it was time.... hugs to you friend.

Parker said...

just know that I am now and will always be here for you sweetheart, you know where to find Me, come talk love when you can

deb said...

Congratulations?

SixDegrees said...

I do wish I could reach across the miles and give you a comforting hug.

There is a certain finality in the words of the decree. That there is no going back. Only going forward.

Here is my suggestion: Put the decree in the last page of your wedding photo album. Close the photo album and put it back on the shelf. You have finished reading that book.

And go forward into your new life. The life that you have been living these past months. Time to start a new book.

plan0 said...

Yay (?) (!) (?)

Legaleze never does justice to the human condition it tries to represent.

Fiona said...

Dearest Sunny,

Parts are over, parts are just beginning. Move forward with your head held high and reach towards your new future. It shines.

You have your son and daughter as the best parts of your former marriage. And you have memories and scars - everything has its place.

But most of all, you have YOU. And that, dear woman, is the best of the best.

Hugs

Fi

Love, Evolution, and Resilience said...

So if the saying is true about doors closing leading to openings and all that jazz, then I would feel safe in saying... the best is on its way.

I love listening to how you process. You have such courage and depth along with honesty and strength. I don't mean strength like 'hey Sunny you'll be fine', I mean strength in that sense that says, even if it gets messy and ugly and the makeup covers your face black, you'll face it... that's some cool ass shit baby!