My son's backpack arrived at the bus station today, untouched, all in order. The last I heard from him, he was camping at a state park for the night, then starting out for the trail in the morning.
In my attempts to help him locate the pack, I became a member of a hiker's forum, where I encountered a wonderful group of people. I hope he has the opportunity to meet some of them during his journey.
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Since I filed for divorce last summer, I have had little contact with those people I considered "family friends". Due to the very nature of my marital relationship, almost all of our friends were more my husbands than my own, and I did not wish them to think they had to choose sides. Earlier tonight, I called our friend in Georgia, to thank him for his kindness in helping my son these past few days. It was wonderful speaking with our Georgia friend, it has been a long time since we have taken the time to really talk. I had forgotten how much I miss him. He spent so much of his teen and university years in our home, he was/is like a member of the family.
He is such a sweetheart, I felt rather sad though, because all of this time, he has been holding onto the hope that soon-to-be-ex and I will both change, and work it out...i.e. no divorce. Eventually I was able to convince him that is not going to happen, and he then became quite supportive of me. He asked if I was going to stay here in the area, or move, even suggesting I send him my CV, so that he could forward it to a headhunter friend of his. I thanked him, but know I am not quite ready to leave here yet, not until Miss Daughter has started attending college at least. Then...who knows...maybe the world truly is my oyster.
He, along with several other wonderful people in my life, have finally convinced me, that they do love me, for me, they like having me as a part of their lives. I know that may sound strange to many, but my sense of self-worth suffered quite a lot of damage the past 20 some odd years, but, I think I am really on the road to accepting that I am not such a bad person after all.
I am one very lucky woman, I have such wonderful, giving, loving people in my life, sometimes, I really do forget that.
Today, was a good day.
