OMG! Today was an eyeopener.....been so long since I started something that felt so alien to me....and there were even familiar faces there.
Information overload was the game of the day... my head was spinning until lunchtime with all the fact sheets thrown at me....and the names and faces....like I am going to remember it all...doh!
Then when I said something about it....my new boss said....well you know most of it anyway....WHAT!?! Where oh where did she get that idea? I know nothing....nothing....nothing..nothing
After lunch though....I was sitting there at this humongous desk...I mean the desk in my new office was made for King Kong....I can't even reach all the way across it.....and a scene from Seinfeld popped into my head.....George is wanting to nap at work....so he creates this space under his desk....and I thought would they know if I disapeared? I had been sitting there for about an hour...reading, and reading, and reading, and reading....and I just couldn't take it anymore....I really did want to crawl under the desk and hide.
And the weirdest things kept going through my head....I kept worrying about my old job...in fact at 7:30 this morning I put in a call to my old admin asst to call a few clients for me, in case I had forgotten to remind them of schedule changes....talk about not being able to let go......then this afternoon, I still wanted to call, I wanted to make sure everything had gotten done that was supposed to be done there....I hope that goes away once they get my replacement hired....I kept having this nightmarish vision of going in on Wednesday night and all the schedules are totally messed up...and I will only have 2 hours to fix them.....
I know why...even though I was trying to absorb information....I am so used to my mind buzzing a million miles an hour to solve problems....and it wasn't happening today...I am an adrenalin junky...and I missed my fix today.....
Tomorrow is another day.....more information...I am more nervous about tomorrow than I was today...Ggggrrrrrr!